This is seriously the strangest, and most painful thing I've ever experienced... No word of a lie.. IMMEDIATELY AFTER I finished writing my first post about my Mother... I got that call...
On Monday morning, during the early hours of 1:15 AM.. My Mother, Barb Noble, passed away peacefully.. The Wake was today. First showing at 2-4, then later at 7-9pm, at Codd's Funeral Home in Riverview. It was a sad, but beautiful vigil we all had at 8:30pm.. and during the Wake, it just went to show, again, just how many people Mom had touched.. I love her and I miss her so much... But at the same time, I don't really know what or how to feel..
I went to see her at the hospital after I got the call at 2:07am from my Father telling me that she had passed. She was so still.... it was hard, but I know I needed to see her as a help for my own closer.. But since the first 30 min of me hearing about my Mom, and then finally seeing her... I have not cried once (Except for about 15 seconds today during the Vigil). I don't know why... it doesn't feel natural or healthy to me... I feel so numb, yet pained.. I WANT to cry, but it wont quite come out...? I don't get it... Seriously, it sucks..
I love my Mom so much and I will miss her forever. It's as if after I wrote my little note to her in my last message, she heard it, and let herself finally be free from all that Hell she was experiencing these last 7 years...
I love you so much, Mom!!! Please be happy and anew up there.... save a seat for me at your table; I will see you again someday soon... and when I do, we will have lots to talk about...
I love you, Mandy, my sister... You have been so strong through this! We are all SO proud of you!... Mom loved you dearly, and still does, and always will... don't ever forget that! Be strong, Sis.. And remember that we are all here for you<3 ...
Thank you.. I'm going to close this message now... I will always remember her....
*A quick thank you to my boyfriend and Father.. without you two men, I don't know what I'd be like right now...*
Good night Mom. Sweet Dreams.. XOXOXO<3
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